Roll call...

I am often the Jonah type, running from the pretty large tasks my Great Father gives. Pretty hard to admit but it's about accountability, right? I understand why, I know how, but there are times I'm just looking up thinking, 'I don't have it in me to do that?!!! You know that!!'
For example, sometimes I don't want to like everyone. There are people I have a hard time swallowing, or people I'm expected to feed back in love...it's not a pretty sight. It's a lack of trust, faith, forgiveness, mercy, compassion...I could keep going. I end up more upset because now I feel even more unworthy. Like I said, ugly.
I prayed and I turned to His Word...in the end, a Christian Rap song summed it for me:
I would be so hood if it weren't for His Grace

Somehow, knowing that others struggle like me gave me comfort. Maybe I wasn't exactly ghetto but I sure want trying to be civil!

I don't need to agree with everyone or support all their decisions...just be there. So much rejection is bred by neglect and initiated by doubt and passed off as fear. What I realized He was asking of me was to be present. What a comfort to know that He is there, always. If I'm to be like Him, I too, am just to be present.
Giving Him whatever I got means he'll use my 'I don't know what to tell them' and turn it into whatever He knows they need. Like lunch with a friend, a skype session, or even a hug. How great is it to know that I don't have to have the answer going into something?!! I just have to be obedient when called.

John 8:28-29 NASB

So Jesus said, "When you lift up the Son of Man, then you will know that I am He, and I do nothing on My own initiative, but I speak these things as the Father taught Me.  And He who sent Me is with Me; He has not left Me alone, for I always do the things that are pleasing to Him."