I was reacting the same - even though the wave was different. I stopped laughing. It was too real and too hurtful to realize.
I took a moment to seek His Word. Initially, this scripture was fresh in my mind
Romans 12:2And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.
Since today was already a different dialog, I decided to do a word study on renew instead. Funny, Rom 12:2 didn't come up! Instead the following verses spoke deeply to my heart:
Job 10:17‘You renew Your witnesses against me And increase Your anger toward me; Hardship after hardship is with me.
Psalm 51:10Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Colossians 3:10and have put on the new self who is being renewed to a true knowledge according to the image of the One who created him
And the two that spoke the most to me seem to coincide together with what I was doing and what He wanted for me:
Lamentations 5:21Restore us to You, O LORD, that we may be restored; Renew our days as of old
Ephesians 4:23and that you be renewed in the spirit of your mind
I wanted restoration but I needed renewing and one isn't really possible without the other and I wasn't sure in which order to they come. No answer just an action - a calling. I am called to renew that He may restore.
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting new results. I decided I didn't want to recycle my feelings and re-act the same. Life abundant sounds so much more appealing. In an effort to repeal that thinking, I'm capturing my thoughts and my words. And btw, I did apologize sincerely, right away.
I realized I will battle this often, repealing all the stinkin thinkin in my head. The comfort I found in those verses remind me that I'm not alone in this struggle and if I have to redo this, I will be just as blessed. To reinforce dictionary.com defines:
re-
a prefix, occurring originally in loanwords from Latin, used with the meaning “again” or “again and again” to indicate repetition, or with the meaning “back” or “backward” to indicate withdrawal or backward motion: regenerate; refurbish; retype; retrace; revert.
May we all be blessed to repeat God's way and repeal our old ways.
If you're stuck in a rut, God's Word is true, everlasting and unchanging. Hold tightly to what He has to say to YOU, because He wants to speak to everyone.
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