It has been some time since I've posted and my writing is a bit rusty, so bear with me as I convey my thoughts on power and the strength in numbers. Now that I am in back in school, I realize I am such the scientist. I'm methodical, logical, an observer...I really do match in the field of engineering. As I add to my already busy schedule: 4 classes with homework, studying and exams, I'm left appreciating and understanding the true meaning of strength in numbers.
I've found numerically:
< 6 hours of sleep = 1 mommy running at 45% efficiency
4 kids at 4 different stages of life = 8 pick up and drop off stops M-F
2 kids < 2 years old asleep after 9 pm = tomorrow's headache
3 hours of studying per credit hour = @ 12 credits -36 hours of studying/hmwk = a fulltime job
These are just a few numeric equations I've been able to deduce over my returning to school this past August. The equations above have allowed me to understand when and where I have strength in numbers. I can plan around these numbers, I can bet on the likelihood of success with these numbers! However, these numerical representations of my life are not completely true. This week, I had two children out sick. Which meant zero time at school those days and very less than 36 hours of studying and hardly close to 6 hours of sleep. I found that in all my deductions, I still can't account for everything.
That was when I realized the best equation of all:
time with God in prayer + time with His Word = 1 mommy on 100% God given & God driven power
I don't have what it takes to do all the wonderful tasks my Precious Savior has called me to do - because He wanted Us to do them TOGETHER. My strength in my ability to plan, recount and recite all these formulas came down to ensuring that the foundation I have is the fundamental truth to any success. My strengths are my weaknesses, because for a moment I was deluded to believing that those equations were all I needed.
If you are at your end you can finally see His beginning. I pray that you surrender and enjoy the life our Lord is planning for you - every single day.
2 Corinthians 12:9
And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.
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