Divide and Conquer

I have not been in a relationship with Jesus that long. For me, the lady few years have truly been the beginning of my end and there's still tons of me to fix. But...I can whole heartedly say that these last few years I've seen great joy and great pain, new beginnings and final endings. To say the least, my Lord Jesus has blown my mind and left me utterly confused all together.
One of the easiest temptations for me had been the notion of salvation fortune - I'm saved so everything goes good for me now- mentality. My pastor has this great saying: Its not clean up your act and follow Jesus, its follow Jesus and watch what He'll do to your act. I love it because it reminds me that only Jesus has the way, the truth and the light. But what I found to be the area of temptation for me is that I want Jesus to clean up my act for the story I write. Jesus, I need this home, that college, this car, my family should be doing this, my children should behave like this..I had my list of successful acts that I wanted 'Jesus' to fix. And although my life was getting cleaned up, He's revealed to me so much more about all of me that shown me there's so much more to success than my list. And my blessings are to be for His kingdom...not my own. I thought the plans I had for me would completely coincide with the plans that He has for me, 100% of the time! Sometimes they have and sometimes they haven't. In this I've learned to trust Him and SEEK Him. Because even when you think you know everything there is to know about the Alpha and Omega, He switches it up and throws you a curve ball.

This new year we make resolutions to help us focus on accomplishing. Where I would normally have a long list, today the Lord had told me clearly,'its not about you and your plans. I'm gonna give you so much more.' And so in retrospect of change, I'm letting go of the reigns and watching my life be given up daily that His will may be done. Its really, really hard but I know that He wouldn't leave my side.
I hope this year the desires of your heart reflect the heart of the Almighty and watch His will be done in your life with amazement! God bless!

Galatians 5:13 NASB

For you were called to freedom, brethren; only  do  not  turn  your freedom into an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another.