I have recently learned (the very hard way) that there will be times in my adult Christian life that I must be still and silent. What does that mean in our society? What does that mean as an adult? And especially as a mother of 4...what does that mean? I've toggled back and forth with my 2 year, lol...all of them actually, to sit in time out and refocus. Then I realized, I can't even sit still at the traffic light! My wonderful 3g phone with email, apps and games allowed my mind to constantly be filled...but with what?
When my loving Father brought my world to a stand still I realized that even in the hustle and bustle of daily life I could find many moments to be still. It was my mind that needed to be still and silent. It was my need for more that needed to be silent and still. It was the 'inner' me that God wanted and the 'inner' me that was the loudest and constantly in motion. It was no wonder I couldn't hear Him, I was too busy rambling on about me.
Over the past few weeks, slowly but surely I have found many ways of being still and silent. I no longer pick up my phone during traffic but pray instead if I need to talk. I'll lie awake in bed just being still and silent. I don't contemplate the next 12 hours, 7 days, month, year and so forth...every moment something comes up.
I have found peace in 'inner' silence. I have found growth in no movement. Funny, I would've never thought that to move forward and grow you would need to take a time out. Guess we really do learn all we need in Kindergarten.
Lam 3:28 Let him sit alone and keep silent, Because God has laid it on him
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